Random thoughts of a boy who always wanted to be a girl

• I wanted to be a girl when I was 5
• I envied my older sister
• Later I envied my younger sister too
• When I entered puberty (12?) I hated having erections
• I wondered what would happen if I cut it off
• As I aged, I hated having a penis
• I envied girls and wished I had no penis ALWAYS
• Girl’s bodies were so much smoother and sleeker
• When I was 12, I almost confessed to my mother that I wanted to be a girl
• I was afraid of what my father would say
• In those days, girls were much more feminine - I loved this about them
• They wore dresses much more often - they were lucky
• I loved dresses
• I used to dream about my legs being free and feeling the breeze
• As I aged, I began to think about boys a lot
• One of my fondest dreams was to have a boy carry me in his arms with my arms around his neck
• I didn’t know it then, but if I had, I would have asked my mother to take me to a doctor to get female hormones
• One night, I sneaked into my older sister’s room and lifted her nightgown while she was asleep to study her lack of a penis
• I wanted to be her sooooo much
• When I was a teen, I wished I could date boys
• I fantasized boys wanted to kiss me
• I wanted to make them excited just looking at me
• When I was a man, I kissed a man and turned him on
• I dressed in my sisters' clothing a lot - in secret
• I've fantasized about growing breasts forever

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