- I wanted to be a girl when I was 5
- I envied my older sister
- Later I envied my younger sister too
- When I entered puberty (12?) I hated having erections
- I wondered what would happen if I cut it off
- As I aged, I hated having a penis
- I envied girls and wished I had no penis ALWAYS
- Girl’s bodies were so much smoother and sleeker
- When I was 12, I almost confessed to my mother that I wanted to be a girl
- I was afraid of what my father would say
- In those days, girls were much more feminine - I loved this about them
- They wore dresses much more often - they were lucky
- I loved dresses
- I used to dream about my legs being free and feeling the breeze
- As I aged, I began to think about boys a lot
- One of my fondest dreams was to have a boy carry me in his arms with my arms around his neck
- I didn’t know it then, but if I had, I would have asked my mother to take me to
a doctor to get female hormones
- One night, I sneaked into my older sister’s room and lifted her nightgown while she was asleep to study her lack of a penis
- I wanted to be her sooooo much
- When I was a teen, I wished I could date boys
- I fantasized boys wanted to kiss me
- I wanted to make them excited just looking at me
- When I was a man, I kissed a man and turned him on
- I dressed in my sisters' clothing a lot - in secret
- I've fantasized about growing breasts forever
